Chapter 38
Farewell to Mother
The same day, about seven o’clock in the evening, Raskolnikov was on his way to his mother’s and sister’s lodging--the lodging in Bakaleyev’s house which Razumihin had found for them. The stairs went up from the street. Raskolnikov walked with lagging steps, as though still hesitating whether to go or not. But nothing would have turned him back: his decision was taken. “Besides, it doesn’t matter, they still know nothing,” he thought, “and they are used to thinking of me as eccentric.” He was appallingly dressed: his clothes torn and dirty, soaked with a night’s rain. His face was almost…
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Key Quotes & Analysis
"always love me as you do now"
Context: Asking his mother before he leaves
He seeks unconditional love without yet confessing the crime.
In Today's Words:
He asks his mother whether she will always love him as she does now, whatever she hears about him, spoken from the fullness of his heart without weighing the words. She promises to refuse any tale against him. Sometimes you secure love before you can bear to name what you have done.
"kneel down and pray to God for me"
Context: Farewell before he leaves his mother
He cannot stay but asks her prayer to reach heaven.
In Today's Words:
When his mother offers to come with him, he tells her to kneel down and pray to God for him because her prayer perhaps will reach Him. He wants blessing without explanation, not company on the road. Before the hardest step, many people ask for prayers they cannot yet deserve on their own.
"I am going to give myself up"
Context: Telling Dunya his next act
Surrender chosen though he immediately questions why.
In Today's Words:
He tells Dunya it is time and that he is going to give himself up, then adds he does not know why he is doing it. The words outrun understanding and frighten them both. You can choose accountability while still raging at what you call superfluous disgrace.
"noxious insect, an old pawnbroker woman"
Context: Rejecting the word crime after Dunya speaks of blood
Theory flares again; her grief briefly checks him.
In Today's Words:
When Dunya says he has shed blood, he cries that he killed a vile noxious insect, an old pawnbroker woman of use to no one, and calls it atonement for forty sins. He insists everyone is rubbing crime in on all sides. Intellectual justification returns the moment surrender is named; listen for theory when someone says they are ready to pay.
Thematic Threads
Family
In This Chapter
Mother joy, Dunya horror
Development
Broken before police
Pride
In This Chapter
Neva, insect speech
Development
Still fighting label crime
Surrender
In This Chapter
Give self up
Development
Leads to ch39 cross
Sonia
In This Chapter
Dunya waited with her
Development
Secret shared
Svidrigailov
In This Chapter
Offstage suicide
Development
Parallel threat ends
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
This is not a test. Five prompts guide you through the chapter, from how it opens to how it closes, so you notice context and rhythm rather than facts to memorize. Sit with each question in your own words. When you see "One way to read it," treat it as a starting point, not the only answer.
- 1
What does Raskolnikov tell Pulcheria, and what does he refuse to explain?
analysis • surfaceOne way to read it
He says he loves her and will go far, asks her to pray, but will not name prison or crime. She blesses him without knowing the full weight.
- 2
Dunya already knows from Sonia. How does she answer his plan to surrender?
analysis • mediumOne way to read it
She accepts his decision with dry eyes and shared suffering. Sisterhood becomes partnership in shame, not rescue from it.
- 3
On the Neva he nearly throws himself in. What stops him?
application • mediumOne way to read it
A passerby's disgust or indifference recalls his cowardice before life. Suicide loses to the crossroads ritual Sonia demanded.
- 4
He rants that the pawnbroker was a louse and the theory was not nonsense. What state of mind is that?
analysis • deepOne way to read it
Split consciousness: still justifying murder while walking to confess. Theory dies slowly while feet move toward law.
- 5
He gives Dunya his portrait before leaving. Why that gift?
reflection • deepOne way to read it
It is a keepsake for the brother she will visit in Siberia, a human trace before the convict replaces the student.
Critical Thinking Exercise
Plan Care Before Confession
If you had to face consequences tomorrow, who would need a loving goodbye without full detail, and who needs the complete truth? What instructions would you leave for each?
Consider:
- •Who is too fragile for facts tonight
- •Who already knows or suspects
- •What task keeps them safe while you go
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 39: Confession at the Police
That evening he will come to Sonia for the cross and the Hay Market bow; news of Svidrigailov's suicide will meet him at the police office.





