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Then I begin to run, Vardaman says, toward the back and to the edge of the porch, where I stop and begin to cry. It is cut up into pieces of not-fish now, feeling where the fish was in the dust. Then it wasn't so. It hadn't happened then. And now she is getting so far ahead I cannot catch her. The fat son of a bitch came and did it when she was all right. He came and did it.
Vardaman runs to Jewel's horse in the warm smelling stall, vomits the crying, and says he kilt her twice. In the dark he finds a stick and beats Peabody's horses in the road: You kilt my maw. The stick breaks. The buggy tilts on two wheels. I ain't a-goin' to milk you, he tells the cow. I ain't a-goin' to do nothing for them.
Cash limps down, sees the broken hitch-rein, and hopes the horses are past Tull's. Durn him, Vardaman whispers. I showed him. In the barn dark the horse dissolves into legs, eye, splotches, and Vardaman is not afraid. Cooked and et, he says. Cooked and et. Dewey Dell is in the kitchen with the fish pieces in a pan. What happens when a child's grief turns the doctor, the horses, and supper into one story?
When a child cannot hold death as an ending, a villain feels safer than absence. Vardaman beats Peabody's horses and says he kilt her while the fish is not-fish and supper blurs into cooked and et.
Before you correct the facts, write down what they say happened in their own words and ask what loss they are trying not to know.
Dewey Dell lights the kitchen lamp over jagged fish pieces in a pan and thinks of Peabody as the one man who could end her secret trouble if he only knew. Cash asks where Vardaman is while the saw keeps circling the house like a dog at every door.
What this chapter proves — the pattern beneath the scene
In this chapter, the lesson is Surviving Chaos You Did Not Create — The Brother Who Saw Too Clearly.
The card below names the pattern this chapter proves — carry it with you into Faulkner's voices.
Surviving Chaos You Did Not Create
Vardaman decides Peabody killed Addie by arriving too late with the wrong tools. The child converts helplessness into blame because chaos needs a face. He did not create the illness or the coffin. He still needs someone to hold.
Key Insight
When you cannot stop the catastrophe, the mind assigns a culprit. Surviving chaos often begins by naming what is not yours to control.
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Chapter 13
Vardaman Then I begin to run. I run toward the back and come to the edge of the porch and stop. Then I begin to cry. I can feel where the fish was in the dust. It is cut up into pieces of not-fish now, not-blood on my hands and overalls. Then it wasn't so. It hadn't happened then. And now she is getting so far ahead I cannot catch her. The trees look like chickens when they ruffle out into the cool dust on the hot days. If I jump off the porch I will be where the fish…
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Vardaman says the fat son of a bitch kilt her, beats the doctor's horses, and ends with cooked and et. Pick one time a child or grieving person blamed the wrong target. Write their version of what happened in their own words. Then write the loss underneath before you correct any facts.
Write the blame they named, then the loss underneath. After both are on the page, what becomes possible besides correction?
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