Dark Night of the Soul Ch. 21: When Growth Feels Like Dying

Saint John of the Cross

When Growth Feels Like Dying

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The Divine assails the soul in order to renew it and make it divine. He strips it of the habitual affections and properties of the old man, to which it is closely united, attached, and conformed. This is not a gentle edit of habits. It is a tearing of what the soul has been fused to. Renewal starts by splitting the old attachments, not by adding new ones.

God splits and tears the spiritual substance, severing and detaching it, in order to set it free. The suffering resembles that of a man who is flayed alive, or of one wrenched from something to which he has been inseparably attached. Saint John calls this the supreme suffering of the purgative way. Liberty costs that kind of wrenching. The soul is not being destroyed for sport. It is being pulled off what it cannot let go of by itself.

Ezekiel's word applies: the soul flees from the face of the sword. It feels itself wounded to the quick, and all its former support and shelter is being taken from it. The sword is this assault of God. Shelter gone feels like death. The aim is still freedom: stripped of the old man so the soul can be made divine.

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Recognizing Transformative Destruction

Some pain severs what you were fused to. John compares divine renewal to flaying and Ezekiel's fleeing soul when shelter is gone.

Juan learns that violent detachment can aim at freedom even when every instinct says run.

Coming Up in Chapter 22

Having explored the soul's experience of this divine stripping away, John will next examine the specific ways this transformation manifests and how to navigate the confusion it brings John lists other pains afflicting the soul in this state. The soul feels so unclean and miserable it thinks God is against it and that it has set itself against God..

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Sitting with Darkness

God splits and tears spiritual substance, severing and detaching it, in order to set it free. The suffering resembles a man who being alive is flayed, or one wrenched from something to which he is glued. The soul flees from the face of the sword because it feels itself wounded to the quick, and all its former support is being taken from it. This is the supreme suffering of the purgative way.

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Sitting here is not stoic posing. John names how violent the inner tearing feels. The instruction is still not to flee. The tearing is the detaching.

“this suffering resembles that of a man who being alive is flayed, or of one who is wrenched from something to which he is glued.”

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Chapter 21

When Growth Feels Like Dying

Continues the same matter and considers other afflictions and constraints of the will. The Divine assails the soul in order to renew it and make it Divine, stripping it of its habitual affections and properties of the old man, to which it is very closely united, attached, and conformed. And so He splits and tears the spiritual substance—severing and detaching it—in order to set it free; this suffering resembles that of a man who being alive is flayed, or of one who is wrenched from something to which he has been inseparably attached. This is the supreme suffering of the…

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